Nothing's Bigger Than Love

it’s so terrifying to think that as we’re all planning our futures, there are kids planning their deaths. and to think that if avery saw all of the support she’s getting on her facebook, she might have been here still. i didn’t know her, and couldn’t even put a face to her name before today. but she touched lives by losing hers. nothing i have been through can amount to what her family and friends must be feeling. the person who found her. the confusion and anger they must deal with. going through her facebook, you would have never known. and that’s the scary part. we don’t know what happening in someone’s mind; in their heart. avery, i wish you could know how you shook this school to its core. i wish everyone could have shown you how much you are missed before you had to be missed. because you are, and you are beautiful. rest in peace.

that scary moment when i was the dd last night and i feel more hungover than i do when i’m shit faced

It is very possible that I am the only teenager ever that has had a license for a day, had a car parked out front, permission to use it, and chose to bus to work. I have faith in who I will be in the future

some people are so fucked up and disgusting and evil and i wish i didn’t know about any of the evils and that it could just go back to the innocent disney days but those days aren’t so innocent anymore when there are people in your ear telling you that disney was a racist 

it’s just one of those situations where i know i wouldn’t be content being a dentist

I don’t understand people that aren’t passionate about anything. People that never wonder why we’re on this planet. 

People that don’t strive to find their purpose in life. No, I don’t think anyone’s purpose is to smoke weed and pop out babies. We don’t need more babies, there are already 8 billion souls that the earth can’t sustain. 

I need to find something more. I don’t want to be one of those people. One of those people that is completely content, sitting around. Living in Winnipeg. 

Don’t get me wrong, I fucking love Winnipeg. But I need to help the world. 

How can people watch commercials about dying children and say “a dollar a day? that’s 365 a year!”. The only thing I have to say to them is… Even the cheapest thing at Starbucks is more than that you goon.

It makes me sick. What really makes me sick is that it seems that the only people that care about the earth think that their voice is too small to be heard. How much of your money is actually going to that child? No one knows. Because corporate greed has to take their fraction. Obviously. 

We learn in school how to make ourselves successful. I don’t understand how people are willing to put in the work to benefit themselves, but they won’t put in the work to benefit those who can’t help themselves. 

I want to say that We Day inspired me, but it didn’t. It doesn’t inspire me to know that Al Gore flew into Winnipeg for a day to tell us that we have to turn off the lights. Al, you got your Nobel Peace Prize, and fell off the face of the earth. 

What bothers me the most is how even I can’t practice what I preach. I’ll come home bawling because I saw a homeless man on the street, and I’ll cry because it’s +4 in January, but just the fact that it bothers me is nothing. It makes me so upset when people comment on how I’m saving the world, and how I care so much. Because I don’t. I mean, I do. But actions speak louder than words, and my actions aren’t even close to the volume they should be.

Recycling does fucking shit all. Recycling your plastic water bottle does not justify that you’re using it. For some reason we’re all under this disgusting impression that the tiny things we do will change everything. Well, they won’t. Just because I walk to the store, and my mom walks to work, does not mean that society is not dependent on oil. We’ll all be told to drive less, bike more. But no one really wants that. If big name companies really wanted to reduce green house gas emissions, they’d, well, close down. But they’re not going to do that. 

When I was in second grade, I was told that by the year 2010, 70% of all cars on the road would be electric. Well, that was possible before the oil guys were like hold up nigga, I want some money. And they’re more powerful than anyone, so they got their way.

Society makes me angry. But the one thing they did that was awfully, disgustingly wrong, was put us under the impression that we don’t have the power to do something about it. 

Not taking the bus, not recycling your paper after one thing has been written, but really make a difference. Influence people. Think differently, and plant your Christmas tree. 

I don’t think anything makes me more angry than people that are happy about climate change.